Yupe, I'm cheated!!!
I barely keep my spirit up!!! I'm pissed off with something... yupe something very important that will determine the livelihood of a working mother with three mouth to feed...
Should I shed my weight so that I looked intelligent ? I am so angry but do you think what you eat is what you are ? No, i don't think so, I don't eat pork but yet I look like I am eating it... so, what ? why I don't look like chicken I ate chicken almost everyday of my whole life (but act like one) ? Doi, nonsense betul...
I CAN DO IT!!! YES, I CAN and I WILL DO IT...
I'm back!
11 years ago
oh dear, seems like someone's trying to belittle you on weight :( well, being someone that is horizontally-challenged :) one comment that i had from a big boss at one point in my past life was that i was smart but if only i was not that fat! i think i replied to the messenger that, if i was slim and half-as-smart, will i still have equal people's respect for me today? the person was instantly muted.
ReplyDeletei would love to lose more weight myself, and i have done so in the past... but times when my self-esteem bubble's about to burst (due to being constantly reminded how big i am and that i am completely surrounded by beautiful (slim/sexy) people), i came to a point where i was going to fall off the edge and become completely paranoid, or not...
And perhaps, it was the 'what if' that made me come out of myself... i opened up my life: wore the clothes that other people wore that fat people were told not to, be photographed every which way showing rolls upon rolls of pure unadulterated fat! :)
I don't care to analyze myself much more than I normally am apt to (it's the being kinder to myself!), but I have felt better about myself... in a humane sort of way. i am a woman and in every inch to me, someone's gonna find beauty there! :)
shern, big hugs to you today - i only got to see your post today, so its been awhile... sorry for the lengthy sharing, but hope its useful for thought...
meanwhile, losing weight is still appealing to me, but i don't have a concrete plan or timing for it! but about eating healthy and exercising, i am all for it - i do so little of the two, especially the last one nowadays, but i look forward to physical change, when it comes, as it comes...
Thank you so much Trixie, your kind words did enlight me of how I see things.. especially to myself..
ReplyDeleteI was annoyed when ppl make that comment to me, like, everybody have to be thin and being fat is stupid and embarrasing..
My eldest daughter is also putting weight and I am very worried that it will affect her life the same as mine, always in denial and the fact that she is a happy child, smart and truly gifted..
But, as I read on your comment, I totally agrees with you ! I'll wore the clothes that fat people were told not to !! as long as I am comfy and happy with it!!!
A doctor once told me that as long as you happy with what you are, you are OK and be HAPPY always!!!